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“Still Singing Amazing Grace” by Sandra Malone

 I was born and raised on Ben Hill, though the old house isn’t standing anymore. Back then, we lived on a big farm—with cows, chickens (nearly a thousand of them!), and more chores than I could count. I was the only girl with four brothers—David, Gerald, Jimmy, and Richard. Gerald and Jimmy have passed on, but Richard still lives in Hodgdon, and David’s turning 80 this June. David didn’t like the barn work, so I often ended up doing dishes, but I still found myself out with the animals more than not.

Life was busy but simple. We didn’t have neighbors close by, and most of our time was spent working on the farm. Sundays were special. After church, we’d go visit relatives—sometimes even stay for supper. It was a rhythm that taught me hard work, family, and faith.

This interview was done on my 84th birthday—what a meaningful way to celebrate and look back over a full and blessed life.

Church has always been a big part of my journey. I was baptized, taught Sunday School, and spent more than 80 years connected to the Hodgdon United Methodist Church. I remember when we didn’t have a church hall—just an old army barracks out back. We had Halloween parties with apples hanging from the ceiling and donuts on strings. We didn’t buy costumes—we used whatever we had at home. We didn’t have bathrooms, either, but none of that mattered. The church was a hub for love, community, and laughter.

I got married in Hodgdon and moved to Haynesville with my husband. We had four children together. Tragically, when I was just 34, he passed away suddenly—hugged a tree on the side of the road and never came home. They suspected heart disease, but no autopsy was done. His family had a history of it, and sadly, his brother died just a few years later, too. It was a devastating time. I had just left my job to be home more, and nine months later, I found myself a widow with four little ones.

It was my faith and the church that carried me through. My husband’s mother was a kind woman who helped wherever she could. The church community supported me, not just with prayers, but with presence. They showed up. They walked beside me.

I went back to work for insurance. We couldn’t get government help because I had an old car and truck. I burned wood for heat, and I needed that truck. Eventually, my brother bought it, and I stopped trying for help. Instead, I worked. I provided.

My proudest moments came from my work and my family. I was a nurse for 37 years at Community Living Association (CLA), serving adults with intellectual and developmental disabilities. Those people were like family to me. I knew each of them. I cared for them deeply. It wasn’t always easy, but it was good, honest work. We laughed together, faced hard days together, and built relationships that still live in my heart.

I started my nursing career at Madigan Hospital—on maternity and surgical floors. I remember when we had 20 babies in the nursery at once, and mothers would go back home while the babies stayed in our care for a while. I bathed them all, made the formula, and did whatever was needed. It was a different time—more personal, in some ways.

One time at CLA, a resident ran down Court Street completely naked—and there I was, chasing after him! My friends still laugh about it. We didn’t have the locked doors they have now. Still, it was a place of laughter, love, and purpose.

When I think of my favorite things, my hymn is “Amazing Grace.” I used to sing it to my grandson when he was little, and now, at 19, it’s still his favorite. Psalms is my favorite book in the Bible. There’s something so honest and comforting in the words. I’ve read the Bible many times through, following our church’s reading plan. I usually read 20 chapters a day—sometimes more. It sinks in differently now. Deeper. More personal.

Outside of the Bible, I love Amish fiction and books from Guideposts. Their simple, faith-filled stories speak to me. They remind me of what matters.

I’ve had close friends over the years. One in particular—Evelyn, though we always called her Chudi—has been through so much. She lives in Florida now, but we keep in touch. She’s been a true friend, through thick and thin. I also try to be there for others—cooking meals, doing laundry, giving rides, whatever they need. I don’t do it for praise. I do it because I love people. I’ve always loved babies. If a child came into my house without clothes, I’d go get them some. I’d go without so they could have what they needed.

My hope for my children and grandchildren is simple: that they behave themselves, live within their means, and stay out of trouble. Some have had hard times—bad crowds, broken relationships, mistakes—but I keep praying. I believe in them. I hope they learn to pay their bills, live honestly, and stay grounded.

If I could give them one message, it would be this: live simply, give generously, and always stay close to God. We didn’t have much growing up, but we paid our bills and lived within our means. That’s something worth passing down.

The most important life lesson I’ve learned? Give more than you take. Even if you don’t have much, you always have something to share. Whether it’s time, kindness, or an extra shirt in the closet—give it. You won’t regret it.

And when I’m gone, I hope I’m remembered as someone who cared. Someone who gave. Someone who saw people and loved them well. I didn’t do it for recognition. I did it because it’s who I am.

As for the church—I hope it stays open. There was a time it closed because we couldn’t get a minister. But Reverend Frame came back and put us back together. Without the conference, we wouldn’t have the pastor we do now. I want to see this church grow again, filled with children, laughter, and strong faith. It breaks my heart to see fewer kids coming now. But I still believe. I still hope.

There’s work to do on the building, sure. But more than that, there’s work to do in hearts. I hope this church remains a place where people are loved, welcomed, and nourished—just like it was for me.

This is my story. 84 years of grace, grit, and giving. Thanks be to God!

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